30 minutes

Do you still remember Tatu?
the Russian "lesbian" duet?
today,while i was walking to my block,
you know,now days college life just plain bored,
being all alone, with a bottle of vodka,
no one care, no one give a damn,
just like a death man walking down the blocks,
this song shuffled in my earphones - 30 minutes.
its a pretty nice song,
somehow it fits to what i want to write about,
just a moment, in a blink of an eye,
things may just change tremendously,
you can change your state of mind,
and prove to yourself how silly you are wasting time letting your emotion controlled you,
to be mad or sad.

We human,just doing what human meant to do,
we are born with feelings & senses,
sometimes the stupidest thing may be the thing we really hoping for,
like,there are moment,
we just hope there will be somebody may show their helping hand,
to hold our hand when all we do was just screaming,
we hope that person can be so calm and wise,
showing us the bright light for the next step,
guiding us without hesitating or asking any explanations,
but just keep finding solutions for us,
and not placing blame and getting more angry toward our out-of-control moment.

These past few days,
things changed from bad to wonderful,
another way round,from wonderful to bad,
everything just happen in just a matter of minutes,
so fast till you got no time to think,
a session like this,seem frighten me a lot,
i hate things that i could never know how much i can handle,
or how far i could taking it balance.

Along with this song playing in my mind,
it changed my state of mind from awful to tears of joy,
it makes me flashed back the days when i'm in Russia,
one of the day,when i doing my training with a group of special kids,
those kids were amazingly smart and involved,
i still remember there were 2 girls played guitar for us,
the married couple teachers danced at the back of the class,
then, talked to us about the children background stories & education,
while feeding us with cookies and coffee,
it prove that language was not an issue at all.
i shed my tears again in a dark corner,
yet,nobody would ever care.

Sometimes you think you are so smart,
well, you are not,
and all you need is just a smile and a hand that calms you,
so,what for to being so tough & faking with that mask on?
all you can do is just wait and pay attention for those amazing state-of-mind-changing moments.