am i a heart breaker?

Disappointment you shouldn't have done,

the things we did there,

and we could have been really happy,

you will have such memorable day.

you couldn't have done,
you wouldn't have done,
what a piteous thing, a hideous thing,

yet it just happened,
it will be tinted by the rest of our heart forever.

why can't you put yourself into me before you said so?

you never really take my effort,

for everything i done, you never be enough,

there have no limit for you to request from me,

aren't you get satisfy?

am i really that bad for you?

i'm trying so hard, to be the best that you could proud of,

i'm so afraid i will fail you & break your heart,

i dare not to sound a single pain i felt,

cause i care your feelings,

every steps i make,

i put myself into your shoe & make my decision.

do you ever bother to know?

ever since dad left us,

i learned to be strong,

but, under your eyes,

i'm just another rebellion, shallow minded & immature girl,

so, tell me.

with your thought already well set up,

where is the ground for me to show you my effort & improvement?

all i get is your rejection.

what did i get i return?

a unappreciated try,

a broken heart with an abandon soul,

left behind unseen.

with all my heart doing everything for you,

to love you, to respect you,

to make you feel you can replace dad,

i didn't ask for your return,

all i want just a look & appreciation from you.

yet, you return me with,

not enough,

sick of me,

& the never ending blame.

i wasn't angry with you,

i felt too disappointed,

this is so far i could go,

i'm sorry for such a failure creation of yours.

i love you, mom.

Happy Mother's Day.