gloomy gloomy clouds on my head

is that time again,

where have to say bye bye to holiday,

grab your butt back to the 8am class,

time to arrange new timetable for the new term,

which i hate it so much,

i can't never get to take my major & minor together,

either sacrifice 1.

worst thing is, i'm left behind,

from the rest who already finished their major subjects.

supposed complete all the irritating minor,

and i'm off,

but, just suck to hear that,

it would never be happen, at least not for the another year,

sometime things just wasn't going just so smooth as it planned, huh.

is definitely a sad sad situation,

seeing people ahead of you.

who make me choose this path,

it is you that taking all the control,

who make me can't continue with this path,

it is still you.

blame who?

no comment.

after all Malaysia still fine, right?

* * * *

for i could create a greater happiness,

why not?

but, been lingering..

what if it hurts me?
what if i break down?

what if this everything push me till the edge again,

does all this still matter?

for everyone would be happy by then,

and i'm just myself,

that's not even big enough to find me in that crowd,

sometimes sacrifices is needed to make the world look better.

i'm feeling hopeless, senseless & helpless at all time,

i felt i'm so surrounded,

yet, i'm hollow & empty,

it's really doesn't matter,

i'm not that type of girl who just gives up just like that,

difficulties is my faith,

i always go through it, wasn't i?

it never change.

so why not take the chance,

do the crazy dance,

pick yourself for another try,

at least you put your feet once again,

else miss it & lost even more.

it's always hard,

it never once go smoothly with me,

each time just get another inch nearer to my limit,

but, i should have prepared for the worst,

i can stand again.

that's why i choose to walk it through,

instead of making a de tour,

shut my eyes, for i wouldn't see the pain,

shut my ears, for i wouldn't hear you shout.