Paranoid me

i think i'm just over reacted,

thinking way far beyond,

worried over some tiny little matter,

i can't help it,

that's me, Pearly Tan.

Today my precious,

seem great, eat, shit, sleep well,

manage to whack the whole bowl of boiled veggies,

no sight of discomfort at all,

and, i felt so much relieved.

this little devil,

completes me,

almost replace everything of mine,

i really love her,

so do my family,

we always treat her as human & not dog,

like a goddess child in da house.

and i know,

some how this is bad,

not about the over pampered issue,

we do discipline her & correct her naughty behavior.

the thing is,

she can't stay with me forever,

as you know, dog life is short,

there will be a day she will gone before me,

and, i just can't bear with the thoughts,

it frighten me,

that's the fact that i wish is never be true,

seeing her growing so fast,

deep in me,

i felt really reluctant,

it's like having a dilemma feeling.

wanting her to grow up happily & enjoy her life,

on the other hand,

this is the sign of she is aging.

now, she is 7months old,

a few more months later till she turns adult.

fearful enough.

see, i'm paranoid,

i shall just ignore those nonsense, right?

at least i will stop seeing her with a pity look,

that always keep me or maybe feeling depress,

i shall just cherish every moment i have with her,

and make her life fulfilled with all my love & care.

Precious,

please be healthy.